I deeply believe the love of God for me, and following Kimberly’s suggestion, I started an interactive journal with God last month as I share honestly with the Creator and write down the responses I hear in return. It has been a very rich blessing. This was my first entry of what I heard God speak to me:
Who made dogs to have such intense joy in their owners? Who made them to bond so deeply that even a few minutes separation is cause for dancing delight at the owners return? I just molded my heart for you into a creative four-legged expression so that you could see me reflected in my creation. You are my joy! I watch you with delight as you sleep as any mother of a newborn, and my heart jumps when you awake, longing for you to find the good in the day that hides like little Easter eggs all around. I ache with you with every fear and burden you face. I feel more pained by your pain than even you feel. I agonize with you and long for the day when I can take it all away. I hate that your healing and growth requires so much suffering. I know you are doing your best even if you doubt and judge yourself. And really there is no “best,” no perfect response to life, no path that is better than all other paths. It is like an art gallery that can be explored at any pace in any direction. Each path has its own experiences that offer its goodness and pain. I wish you could worry less and trust more, but that cannot be “fixed” any more than spring can skip to fall without passing through summer. It is a long, twisting journey and I only hope you will see me walking it with you by your side.
Janathan Grace Reflections 
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